When I read the quote above I knew that it described me perfectly. At times I am compelled to share and other times I simply long for retreat - to quietly work away without revealing my artistic output. These seasons of retreat often have to do with creating a space that allows me to try new things and work without feeling any more pressure than I already put on myself. This is a cycle I have entered into time and time again - regardless of the art-form. I am conscious that my social media posts have not been as frequent and that I am letting deadlines and opportunities pass me by - all in an effort to embrace this time of "hiding away". These times where I seem to disappear are often times of much productivity. And much of this work will be revealed... in time.
The danger of this internet age, where our society is obsessed with having full and instantaneous access into anything and everything, is that these quiet times are discouraged. You build a business with consistency, continuity, and a constant presence. But my artistry suffers when I focus on pumping out work for the sake of making sure I'm always "out there". Times of retreat are integral parts of growing my artistry and I choose not to concern myself with the pressure I feel to always communicate. And I also reject the pressure I feel to communicate in one art-form. Sometimes what I need to communicate comes out in the form of a song, other times a photograph and other times a painting. It may be complicated but it's how I'm called to work.
This particular season of retreat has a focus. Early next year I will have my first solo gallery exhibition. I desire to communicate what I am working on as a cohesive project rather than revealing each piece as I complete it. It's an equally terrifying yet thrilling opportunity and it's my natural tendency to hide away in order to stay focused. I am also working on a special project for an art-themed Urban Market this year which will feature new work which I am excited to share. It's coming - just not quite yet. I am so thankful for those of you who support my artistic endeavours and wait patiently through seemingly quiet times until it's time for me to share once more. Thank you for allowing me to communicate with you and encouraging me when I retreat.